Arrows

2005-09-14T11:49:00.000+08:00

i'm truely sick of this life...

2005-09-07T08:36:00.000+08:00

you know, there's something really funny i noticed recently, in singapore it might not happen but its really common here.

here it goes.

you're walking down the isles of the grocery store, and you see these girls in mid twenties, having all these health concious items in their cart n all, and suddenly you'll see something outstanding, a huge tub of ice cream!

now does that make sense!? i find it funny lol

2005-08-30T00:36:00.000+08:00

Wish I'd told her how I felt,
Then maybe she'd be here right now,
But instead...
I pretended I'm glad I went away
These four walls closing more everyday
And I'm dyin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around

How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still

2005-08-19T13:35:00.000+08:00

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

2005-07-23T13:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They’re swept away and nothing is what is seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams

2005-07-19T15:20:00.000+08:00

The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:

I wish you were here
I wish you were

2005-07-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

its a 4th of july evening, and i'm sitting here wasting my life away..

2005-07-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

2005-06-15T09:50:00.000+08:00

only if there's someone,

someone to understand...

2005-06-07T12:51:00.000+08:00

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,

or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms

but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,

risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;

so I love you because I know no other waythan this:

where I does not exist, nor you,

so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,

so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

-Pablo Neruda

2005-05-20T12:29:00.000+08:00

some people just don't realise how much they mean to some people.

2005-02-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

its like teaching colour to a blind man! x_x

2005-02-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

happy birthday elva

2005-02-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day to everyone x_x

2005-02-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

je m'ennuie de vous
il blesse, pour penser juste à vous

je t'aime

2005-02-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

caught in the middle.

2005-01-28T08:25:00.000+08:00

Truth is not always popular, but it is always right.

2005-01-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

i lack self-confidence, on second thoughts..

i dont have any.

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth

2005-01-07T01:08:00.000+08:00

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

2005-01-03T10:28:00.000+08:00

Scars are souvenirs you never lose.
The past is never far...

2005-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2004-12-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

life's like a jigsaw puzzle with a missing piece...

2004-12-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

you know that i'd die for you

Merry Christmas

2004-12-22T07:38:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to my sis. :/

2004-12-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thikin' 'bout the love that we had
and I'm missin' you
and nobody knows it but me

2004-11-30T08:19:00.000+08:00

a day to remember :(

2004-11-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

Knowing the meaning of life defeats the purpose of living.

2004-11-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

hrmm, why do people keep comparing themselves to others?

what's done is done and can't be undone?

people often worry so much about whats happened and worry less about whats gonna happen.

a spoken voice by an ordinary person, is as good as saying nothing.

2004-10-21T19:09:00.000+08:00

how would you feel if the person who brightened up your life just left all of a sudden?

2004-10-12T21:41:00.000+08:00

stuck in the nothingness inside of me.

When we laugh or we cry, its together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one its foreva, its foreva...
Nelly Feat. Jaheim - My Place

2004-10-08T13:35:00.000+08:00

You drift through the years and life seems tame, then a stranger appears and love is his name.

2004-10-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

mother tongue sucks!

2004-10-04T18:10:00.000+08:00

i love compositions but hate comprehensions!

2004-10-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

haiz. tomorrow's my mother tongue O level examination and i doubt i'll be able to read the instructions. Scared i guess, but it's kind of my fault that i didn't attent my mother tongue school this year.

tomorrow gonna get back prelims results, which is also gonna suck. didn't study whole-heartidly. well, this weeks gonna suck, gonna start studying for O's wednesday onwards.

2004-10-03T13:52:00.000+08:00

but i'm not ever going to know

if i'm right or wrong

'cause we're all going in the same direction

and i'm not sure which way to go

because all along

we've been going in the

same direction

2004-10-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

watched resident evil today.

bumped into vanessa and john at JP.

nice movie, hope there's a third movie to finish the alice program thingy.

2004-09-29T19:57:00.000+08:00

prelims are over! xP

time to study for O levels.

2004-09-25T18:44:00.000+08:00

ONLY FOR THOSE NOT-SO-INNOCENT ONE'S!

(don't lie to yourself.)

Step 1: Go to http://www.google.com.my/language_tools?hl=en
Step 2: Enter the following line: My mom is nice and cool
Step3: Translate from English to Spanish
Step 4: Copy the translated text, and translate it back from Spanish to English

will blog after prelims.

Life..

2004-09-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

whats life supposed to be..?
a suffering for some? and a game to others?
what for live, when there's nothing to live for.

they say life's got its ups and downs.
but to me, it seems like there are no ups.
living a life of suffering, and striving for nothing.
when you feel that you've found a reason to live for,
right then,
the reason flies away.

if i had one wish,
i'll wish for a gun with one bullet..
and not to kill the one i hate most,
but to kill myself.

the answer to my prayers of happiness.

2004-09-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

well, today i skipped school because there was some stupid motivational talk in school today. 3 boys from my class went, and it was so boring that during the break, they went home. didnt do much today, nothing much to do except for studying. 1 week of holidays may bore me out.

watched 13 going to 30 and it wasn't really that good, not funny.
eurotrip is still the best, so is The Girl Next Door!

2004-08-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

teacher's day celebration was rather boring. talent show was funny, but some singers were good!

happy teachers day in advance!

i miss delta!

2004-08-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

nothing lasts forever.

2004-08-22T10:20:00.000+08:00

alien vs preditor.

it sucked.

there wasn't much of a storyline, and during the fighting scene's, its hard to make out who is who. all you see is metal or slimy stuff. :S
it wasn't so good as i expected it to be.

2004-08-12T21:35:00.000+08:00

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are
up above the world so high
like a diamond in the sky.

2004-08-09T17:18:00.000+08:00

I'm not a perfect person.

2004-08-01T13:59:00.000+08:00

lets start from thursday. kayakers not in school so half the class was gone so can say no lessons. during PCCG we went to library, and it was nice sleeping there. during CME wanted to go library but the librarian wasnt there so went to computer lab instead. >.<

as for friday, was pretty similar. 3rd and 4th period there were was no relief teacher so sekran called us to have a 5v5 friendly with 4I boys. was fun, and we won. went back to class and found mrs lim waiting for us. that pink bitch. = she sent us to the toilet to dry up. few mins before recess we went back class, and once we reached class the bell rung. :D :D after recess went to library and last two periods had math. *yawn*

this weekend, nothing much. passing by pretty quickly and im actually doing my math hw. gotta go continue doing my hw. =

amit's turning guai. LOL..

2004-07-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

today had one of the most boring days of school.

canoeists had competition, so they left after reading period. NIVEN CAPSIZED. *thumbs up*

class was quiet! 6 guys and 9 girls. had 3 free periods, english. mrs lian went down to kallang so no lessons!
me and titus were busy listening to music and doing the damn comprehension.
that finished and it was recess.
it was awfully quiet. strange!
after recess had physics. i fell asleep. and it felt so good. i was woken up by an sms from haiqal. -.-"
heard some made it to tha semi's, some couldnt.
then had accounts, well.. wwasn't so bad today. i understood what she was teaching. XD
after school had maths remedial. was supposed to be from 215 to 345 but we were dismissed at 320. :D :D
came home, did nothing.
tomorrow and most probably friday will be as boring.
without the brothers, whats life?

2004-07-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

for fucks sake, JUST KILL ME!

2004-07-24T15:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday i watched i, robot!

wasn't that bad. just realised that the cinema @ great world city is rather nice. :D

today's yet another boring day.. nothing to do.. rotting at home.

2004-07-22T19:51:00.000+08:00

school's been the same, nothing interesting.

my life is fucked up.
things just get worse and worse and worse.
why the hell can't anything nice happen?
next thing i'll know is me flunking my o lvls.

2004-07-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

have not bloged for quite a while now. well, not the reason i'm lazy to blog but because i'm slowly losing interst and at times, i don't feel like blogging.

the weekend came pretty fast, and it passed by even faster. was kind of sick, doing better now.

school life's been the same, nothing much to comment on it.

well my personal life's is rather in a mess. when thing's seem to be fine, everything just has to close its doors on me.

what i need most, is what i'll never get.

the person that gave me a reason for living, is now giving me a reason to be dead.

even though i treasured that 'thing' so dearly, in the end it never pay's off. It only makes me realise what a fool i am.

-siGhx-

shall end here, not in the mood. i'll try to blog more regularly.

2004-07-13T18:17:00.000+08:00

the weekends were rather boring. didn't go out. didn't want to even!
forgot to take maths textbk home for the weekend, couldnt do hw, so hand to stand for 1 period!
got quite a lot of maths hw today. gonna be doing it soon.
dnt is getting boring, doing the artifact the whole day. sand until sian~ >.<
now days there are no more mother tongue lessons, instead have to go AVA room for lessons which are combined with 4G. AVA room's a human freezer! bBbrRrrRr..~
i wanna watch windstruck, and king arthur ( yet to be released ).
what else to write, erm..
BUKIT MERAH SECONDARY SCHOOL's 2 YEAR OLD BUILDING IS GETTIN SOME PRETTY BAD CRACKS.
this school sucks. try not to step foot in this school! you'll regret! :X
everything else is fine except for stuff at home.. - a neverending problem -

2004-07-09T19:47:00.000+08:00

okay. its been quite a while since i last updated. wasnt actually very busy but was rather lazy to update.

since i reformatted comp, nth's been the same. hardly any mp3's or anything. well, maybe that can lose my addiction then i can concenrrate on studying, but with parents arnd.. never!

this week has been rather boring. lessons are gettin as boring as ever, new english teacher.. new sleeping time. >.<

my accounts can go die now.. cant even understand what the teacher's talking. -slaps myself- well. from now on gonna pay more attention. :D prelims coming soon and i wanna achieve my goal. at this moment seeing my mid year results, it might seem impossible, but nothing is impossible! =X

today had a math test, think im gonna fail. finished well before many others and all my answers semt different. or as a matter of fact, almost everybody's answers were different. monday onwards is gonna be a new timetable, no more mother tongue lessons :( ( cant sleep anymore ).. more poa and eng. OMG! ill die.. and this is just the beginning. haiz..

2004-07-06T18:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday the 5th of july.

watched spider-man 2 with quite a few friends today. chris adnan hakim jaya kaixiang kenneth. who else. met junjie and titus.. met cindy after a long time, juz managed to say hi. -_-

the movie was quite nice! don't wanna talk abt it, wanna know? GO WATCH IT YOURSELF.

yesterday my comp was giving a lot of problems so decided to reformatt. went searching clementi for that pirated cd shop but it closed down x(

today reformatted installed XP instead. seems better. but all my songs gone. haiz. slowly downloading songs back, software's i've got disc's. well, thats all for now, will blog later.

2004-07-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

sorry guys, have not been updating recently.

let's start with yesterday ( 3rd of july ).

supposed to go for 4th of july celebrations ( american's indep. day ) but in the end we didnt. instead went for some crappy buffet dinner. didn't want to go but was forced to. wasn't much veriety down there, ate a bit, had dessert. the dessert had more alcohol than ice cream. >.<~
me and my sis were sitting there dead bored while my parents talked with their friend. hate going out with my parents. they treat us like 3 year old kids and if we say something, we're at fault. zz. another thing is that they have a tendency to stare at people which gets on my nerve.

today's been terrible so far. my dad's said he wanted to use the computer for 30 mins ended up using for almost around 4 hours!
If i say something, he'll start gettin mad and stuff. watch tv, my sis also wanted to watch and im supposed to LET HER WATCH WHAT SHE WANTS. nothing like a happy family.

well, now that i mentioned a happy family, one thing's on my nerve. MY PARENTS. everytime they're home, all they talk about is work! work! and nothing else! they could even forget about us @ home.

They made so many empty promises, but to them nothing matters. even for the smallest thing's they'll either forget, or they'll just ignore it as nobody said nothing about it!

all i wanted was a simple life with a normal/average family!

what's a life not worth living, being lived.

2004-07-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

today.. school as usual. was kinda lucky. once i reached school with hendra.. then it began raining cats and dogs. during mother tongue helped these two people do graphs. IM SUCH A GOOD FRIEND EH? LOL. -thats my kind deed of the day- :x

PE was cancelled due to the rain so we ended up watching Remember the Titans. We didn't get to watch the whole movie due to time constrain but watched the whole of disc one. it was kinda nice.

geography lessons, why does mrs lian always have to aim at me. everytime its me. though i admit i didnt hand in my file, but so did a lot more, but why am i the one she points out. haiz. that's life..

had this stupid maths quiz thingy or some crap, dont know what the hell it is. while doing it felt like sleeping and actually slept. played basketball for 10 mins after school then went home.

at home, same old normal life. use net/do hw.. go sleep. sigh!

tomorrow ah kok's leaving. is it good? is it bad? i don't know. let's just wait and see what happens. :P

2004-06-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

hmm, its been quite a while since i last blogged and ppl are complaining that i stopped blogging so here's an update for you all.

first day of school ::

everything went pretty fine, felt abit strange but gotta get used to it. had dr loh's morning talk and it was a killer! his talk's are gettin as boring as ever.. well, we named him father loh for those who don't know. he preaches... man he does.

MATHS!
went well. LOL.. she gave us another day to hand in our hw so that means i got a day to copy! hmm, didnt actually copy but did all i could.. in the end i'll still get scolded by her so just let it be..

English!
mr kok gave us good news. this friday would be his last day with us, he's going for further studies. but is that good news or bad news for us? who'll the next teacher be. most probably mrs lian.. i don't know. I just don't want miss chong. i'll rather die then let her teach me. it seems kinda useless to me, changing a english teacher at this time of the year.. the new teacher doesnt even know our strengths or weaknesses!

2nd day of school was fine..

today was wednesday! third day of school!
ACCOUNTS!
my accounts teacher is more like talking an alien language.. i don;t even understand anything when she's teaching.. i'm rather daydreaming than listening to her and just copy things blindly from the whiteboard. prelims nearing day by day so is o lvl.. what am i gonna do! i'll fail accounts if i continue in this manner!

got our o lvl schedule.. damn. its scaring me now. hope i can do well..

well off of school matters now, next my life!

ever since school's open.. it's been wake up -> go school -> come back home -> use net -> slp. a fixed routine. haiz.. it get's boring! my life is boring.. wish fer sumthing better than this. especially with such a school. full of nothing..

a school with a heart for the community more like making a mess of the community.

life's gettin lonely as well.

last night blackout, my area wasn't. so lucky. -luffz-

will blog later when have things to write. for now, ciaoz.

2004-06-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

got a new hp no. want the number? privately ask me. no way on hell its gonna be arnd this blog.

am i a ghost or what? my presence isn't even noticed. haiz.

felling angry n depressed for some unknown reason.

fuck the world.

where's the love?

2004-06-25T19:19:00.000+08:00

R Kelly - If I could turn back the hands of time

How did I ever let you slip away
Never knowing I'd be singing this song some day
And now I'm sinking, sinking to rise no more
Ever since you closed the door

1 - If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd still be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then darlin' you, you'd still be mine

Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye
Why oh why oh why should one have to go on suffering
When every day I pray please come back to me

Repeat 1

And you had enough love for the both of us
But I, I, I did you wrong, I admit I did
But now I'm facing the rest of my life alone, whoa

Repeat 1

I'd never hurt you (If I could turn back)
Never do you wrong (If I could turn back)
And never leave your side (If I could turn back)
If I could turn back the hands

There'd be nothing I wouldn't do for you
(If I could turn back)
Forever honest and true to you
(If I could turn back)
If you accept me back in your heart, I love you
(If I could turn back the hands)

(If I could turn back)
That would be my will
(If I could turn back)
Darlin' I'm begging you to take me by the hands
(If I could turn back the hands)

I'm going down, yes I am
(If I could turn back)
Down on my bended knee, yeah
(If I could turn back)
And I'm gonna be right there until you return to me
(If I could turn back the hands)

(If I could turn back)
If I could just turn back that little clock on the wall
(If I could turn back)
Then I'd come to realize howmuch I love you
Love you love you love you
(If I could turn back the hands)

2004-06-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

recently i've been thinkin what my life's come to.. i've really lost control over it. in what way, i've yet to discover.

seems like many people have the purfekt life, or near purfekt life.. the whole family gets along well, they don't lack of anything. but for me. its a different story. doesnt seem that im a part of this family anymore.. i don't even know whats going on under this tiny little roof!

holidays are about to end, just a couple of more days.. and what have i done?! NOTHING! promised myself to study after dragon boat competition, but i cant even concentrate on my homework how the hell do i study. prelims will be here in no time, and im so doomed. nothing in this world seems right, or im just born a loser?

too many things in my head, how much more could i take..

life just doesnt seem the same anymore. do friendships last or are my secondary school mates just phrasal friends for 4 years?! what happens after o's? would we still keep in touch... go out with each other? or will we hang out with our new friends and within no time we're gonna be strangers. life's a mystery.. let's just wait and see what it has for us. but for now, my most treasured friends are my brothers.. hope we'll be as close after our o's. even though there are so little chances of going to the same college/poly.. hope we could be what we are now.

past few days have been rotting like hell at home, either sitting infront of this crazy computer screen or that stupid television. i cant catch a hold of my life.. sometimes i don't know what to do. parents don't understand anything i say.. my sis is in her own world, i'll just live to die..

2004-06-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

hmm, woke up. did nothing. still doing nothing..

boring life..

2004-06-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

today played pool with sufian. not so fun as usual.. don't know why. after playing for arnd 2 hours odd.. felt too tired. came home, ate and here i am doing nothing again. NOT GONNA START HOMEOWRK TODAY AS WELLL!!!!

fcukmyfcukinglife!

2004-06-22T09:11:00.000+08:00

yawn *stretches* just woke up, actually was awoken by my mum. my english teacher called my mum because i didnt attend the course.. and i didnt want to anyway. she thought i overslept so told my teacher that im sleeping and she WONT wake me up! lol! hrm.. guess many didnt go thats why he called everybody up.. sighz. another boring day. might be going for pool later with sufian. don't know yet!

2004-06-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

¢hĕ®-26-•°º+[everytime I see u in my dreams. i see ur face. its haunting me. i guess i nid u baby. -sobs-]+º°™• says:
neva write me in ur blog
¢hĕ®-26-•°º+[everytime I see u in my dreams. i see ur face. its haunting me. i guess i nid u baby. -sobs-]+º°™• says:
must say i cute.. hhahas

ur cute k? -.-"

2004-06-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

hrm, woke up in da morning, and dragged myself to school.. and i regretted. it was so god damn boring. the instructor was an australian lady, mrs or miss neilson. hrm, tried to be funny.. or shall i said some tried to be funny but it wasnt. her course was BORING. during the break went kfc to eat, can back, many boys left! wahaha. i was dozing off after the break.. eating chocolates while she was talking. yummy. :x wrote 2 letter's.. and were supposed to write another one but time was up so we're supposed to do it fer hw, but guess what, I AINT GOING TMR! i rather sit at home do homework than attend that stupid course! ..am i gonna do hw or not? -sighz-

fcukthislifeofmine!

2004-06-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

Papa Roach

: : Last Resort : :

Cut my life into pieces
I’ve reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide!

2004-06-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

ahh. fuck life. nothing to say about today. didnt start homework. sent phone for repair and got it back too.

Backstreet boys How did i fall in love with you

Ohwwwwo, I wanna say this right,
and it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this lie
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life.

2004-06-19T20:11:00.000+08:00

hrm. another boring day. watched tv more than i was online today! is that a good sign? :/
today watched a linkin park special and the making of linkin park video, breaking the habit. it was kool. the animation which took arnd a month was made in japan~ i admire those animationists! i wanna be one. ahaha.

raine wants to make those small little 100x100 pixel graphics and she's learning adobe photoshop! lol! she's gone crazy over FF. :/ madness..

didnt start homework yet again today, just because i didnt feel like. i rather kill myself. ;/. these' days feelin kinda downhearted, not much of a reason why.. maybe feelin kinda lonely? god knows. too confuzed to think what i really want and what i really should do. parents invading privacy and whenever i go out, my mum always thinks im going out with a gurl~

fcuk this life!
its sucks..

2004-06-19T13:15:00.000+08:00

BOX CAR RACER LYRICS

"I Feel So"

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over

2004-06-19T12:16:00.000+08:00

today woke up and was boredddddddddd. parents didnt go to work as well. sian halff! hate it when they're around. i have to start homework today! die die also must start. haiz. later need to go woodlands nokia care centre send phone for repair. sum sms settings went wrong sumwhere. :X holidays are finishing soon, it doesnt even seem like its hols. prelims will be rushing in soon and dont know when i am gonna start studying seriously. this year sucks especially in a fcuked up school which i'm in. :/

2004-06-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

went out with sufian for a while to play pool. went quite well, did some stupid stuff lol. i didnt start my homework till now. *slaps myself* maybe tonight i do one english journal writing, but doubt ill do so. -sighz- i hate homework!

2004-06-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

just got back from my el oral prelims. haha. the conversation topic was lameeeeeeeeeeeee. :/ but oh well. it went quite well..

after the oral went to lot1 and ate breakfast with vin then came back home.

2004-06-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's english oral prelims. kinda nervous... hope i would do well. hrmm, intended to start my hw today but just don't have the mood to do so. tmr i doubt i'll embark on it. mannn, when would i over-rule all distractions and start serious studying..

in a confuzed state of mind

2004-06-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

just got back from not long ago. had remedial for english oral. mr kok was boring as always. just feeding us with the same comment as he always does. only 6 ppl turned up. reached pretty early and mr kok was late! AGAIN!

this morning my mom sort of lost her mind. scolding me n my sis that we go out to much and dun do housework, dun study, mix with wrong company and blah blah. :/ hate it when she keeps assuming things. everytime i go out nowadays she thinks i go out with my gf and when i tell her i dont have one she just doesnt believe me.

will blog more later tonight!

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In a maze of her imagination

Beautiful Day - U2

2004-06-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

hrmm. first blog entry! well, i finally got this blog working after so long. :/

today was quite a boring day, stuck at home once again stuck to the computer screen. nba finals, lakers were a dissappoinment once again.. lost by such a huge margin.
nothing much happened today, played a bit of gunbound.. chatted the rest of the time! will blog later when i think of sumthing to write.

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But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home

Bright Lights - Matchbox 20

Arrows

Why didn't I say, the things I needed to sayHow could I let my angel get awayNow my world is just a tumblin' downI can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around

How blue can I get, you could ask my heartBut like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apartA million words couldn't say just how I feelA million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still

Life..

Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around

How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still